Sunday, June 9, 2013

Still Life

We're in Manhattan.  A bar on the Lower East Side, to be precise.  The liquor is flowing, the music is pumping, and the night is young.  Amid all the commotion sits a painting of two people in a quiet, empty bar.  I guess in itself nothing unusual, but I couldn't help looking at it throughout the night.

The bar in the painting is dimly lit, but not so much that you don't notice the red interior of the entire establishment.  The effect is to give the place the glow of an ember.  That slow unassuming burn that hides behind it the potential for a roaring blaze.  A guy and a girl are sitting there two or three bar stools apart.  They're the only two at the bar, as even the bartender has absented himself for the moment.  They aren't talking to each other.  Not yet, at least.

The two of them are both dressed up, and you can tell immediately that tonight is a night where they both desire to see and be seen.  The girl is wearing her trusty black dress.  The one with the low back to show off her toned muscles.  I can't see her face, but by the way she's standing it's clear to me she isn't meek.  This is a girl who knows what she wants, and tonight she wants to be old-fashioned; to be courted.  And so she holds her martini in hand and lazily watches the bottles adorning the back wall.  But we know she didn't come all the way out here to inspect bottles (as if her gaze would somehow force them out of their inert state).

You can tell that the girl senses the guy sitting to her left. Probably as soon as he took his seat.  This evening, he's chosen to wear a well-fitted black pinstripe suit.  Red tie, white fedora.  On his powerful frame, the combination gives him a regal air.  I can't see his shoes, but I assume they're wingtips.  Meticulously polished.  He's holding a cigar in his right hand, and his head is turned slightly to the right.  The brim of his hat hides his eyes, but you can tell he's looking at the girl.  His intentions are made clear to me when I see his wry smile.  He's had just the right amount of alcohol.  Enough to jump-start his game but not enough to dull his reflexes.  The universe has brought these two souls together into this space; into this moment.  It's up to them now to ascertain for what purpose.  And so without taking his eyes off the girl, he reaches over for his drink, turns toward the girl and . . .

Freeze.

The rest I don't know.  The painting stopped the universe for these two people in that magnificent moment when you first begin to take action and anything and everything are still possible.  The outcome--good, bad, or otherwise--is somewhat irrelevant at that point.  What matters is that you've set yourself on a course where there will BE an outcome--a cab ride home together, a phone number on a cocktail napkin, a drink in the face.  No matter what, there will be proof that you didn't just do nothing.

Anyway, for some odd reason I felt this strange painting captured the magic of the city.  I don't know what it is about New York but it inspires a fire within to take action (and I'm not just talking about spitting game). I think maybe it has to do with how everything there is typically the best of its kind. And of course if you believe yourself to be the best, New York is the place to get confirmation, one way or the other.  Pack millions of believers onto a little island, and the result is pure electricity.

As our party moved about from place to place last night, getting mixed up in that electric current, I couldn't help but feel that energy washing over me.  A gritty grimy baptism of sorts.  That in no way means I'm packing up for New York or otherwise feel the need to determine the status of my bestness.  But I will say the collective energy of people who've decided inaction doesn't suit them is truly infectious.  And a little tingly.

-KM

"Concrete jungle where dreams are made of."